I've made a discovery today.

I discover that,
this chaotic life that I've been living after the big break up
is actually me finding myself.
I discover that,
I was so consumed by thoughts of having my own family
and making my in-laws to like me
when I was in that relationship.
Now that I have more time for myself,
I start to look for what I really want in my life,
who I really am,
that I make extreme decisions,
trying out things I'd always wanted to do but never had the courage to do so,
and it's a try-and-error process.
I'm finding myself.
I do not know how to express this,
but this is a very important stage in my life.