Setelah dinasihati oleh Cik Ros dan Cik Beck, serta sokongan dari Cik Fara,
maka wujud la akhirnye blog saya.
Rase malu2 plak da ade blog sendiri.
Erkk.
Tak penah terfikir nak mewujudkan blog sendiri,
tapi da asyik j-chow memanjang,
baik buat blog untuk meluah perasaan.
It's waaaaay better than posting my thoughts on facebook, right?
Hehe.
Baru saja selesai menonton movie yang sangat saya suka,
'He's just not that into you'
Suka sangat watch this movie whenever I feel down in relationships.
Watched it first time after broke-up with my bf.
That was in August 2009, if I'm not mistaken.
Rase macam da lame sangat since the broke-up.
Okay, I cried macam orang giler sikit while watching the movie at that time.
Rase macam "What went wrong after 5/6 years? Why now?"
Well, obviously there was something wrong about it from the start.
I admit, I tried to ignore the differences.
I was blind, love made me blind,
love always makes me blind.
Haihh...
But now, I couldn't imagine myself in that very long relationship.
Pelik kan?
Rase kagum with myself pun iye jugak.
:P
Men and boys come and go.
*or is it me come and go as I please?
I did think I'd fallen for some of the guys.
I think.
I used to jump in a fake, short-termed relationship.
And I got stuck.
My fault.
I let my guard down.
I don't look at it as love now that I'm more sane and rational.
I was lonely and scared at that time.
I perceive it as 'a misguided feeling'.
I cannot promise that I'm more matured now that I'm a 22-year-old babe,
but I'm taking my time to fall in love nowadays.
No rush.
Well, if a guy really likes you, you can see it.
:)
My main problem is:
when I start to have feelings for a guy,
I cannot read the signs clearly and precisely.
It's the reason why I watched that movie tonight as I need to be enlightened.
*semakin mengarut.
I don't want to misread the signs anymore.
He treated me like some piece of shit, but I thought he was being practical.
He checked out sexy, fleshy girls in front of my eyes, but I thought he was being masculine.
He manipulated me, but I thought he needed me.
He blew me off, but I thought he needed more time to be brave.
I'm done with misreading the signals.
Well, if a guy really wants you, he'll always find a way to your heart kan?
